Reflections of a Pianist

#introvertproblems, #INFJproblems

Sometimes appearing cold and withdrawn because one is unsure of how to best convey the depth of one’s emotion or concern.

Santa Maria

Dios te salve, Maria.  Llena eres de gracia; El Senor es contigo.  Bendita tu eres entre todas las mujeres.  Y bendito es el fruto de tu vientre: Jesus.  Santa Maria, Madre de Dios, ruega por nosotros pecadores, ahora y en la hora de nuestra muerte.  Amen.

Seriously?

So when I was a college freshman, there was this guy that I really liked who was a sophomore at the time.  He was from the same state as me, we had a lot of random things in common, he was funny, cute, chivalrous, and best of all, loved being Catholic.  Well, our relationship wasn’t going anywhere beyond a friendship, and I ended up dating someone else for a year (an equally good young man).  And then I found out that this friend of mine was discerning the priesthood.

Ok…I think this guy would make an awesome priest.  That’s great.

Well, my boyfriend and I ended our year-long relationship a few months ago.  It was a mutual decision, one that I feel was right.  We were just moving in different directions and looking for different things in a relationship, and that’s ok.

Fast forward to the past few days…

I just returned last night from a retreat where I was a counselor.  This retreat is geared towards kids who will be high school freshmen in the fall.  I’ve been a counselor there for the past few years, and over the course of the past few years, I’ve met and gotten to know a young man who is just incredible.  He is actually a couple years younger than I am (is that weird, the girl being older than the guy?  It doesn’t bother me if it’s only a couple years…). 

Anyways, he’s one of the gentlest, wisest, and most peaceful people that I know.  I will never forget when we were counselors together at this same retreat two years ago.  My dad was an adult counselor at this retreat also that year, and he gave a talk on the subject “The Importance of Your Trials”.  This was several months after his dad-my grandpa-passed away unexpectedly in an accident.  I knew my dad would talk about my grandpa’s passing, and that it would be difficult for me to listen.  I had just cried through my own talk the previous day, in which I discussed that event as well.  My dad told a story about that day that he had not previously told me or any of my brothers.  My friend sat next to me during my dad’s talk, and when I began to cry, this dear young man gave me support and comfort, as did a few others.  I received lots of hugs following the talk, but I will always remember the peace that this man gave me.

Well anyways, he’s just super.  And he’s also discerning the priesthood.

He would be a fantastic priest, but also a wonderful father.  Whatever happens, happens, and so I will continue to be a friend to him.  I know God will make it all work out in the end, but would it hurt to have a hint or something?  Sometimes I think I’m getting hints, but I wonder and worry that maybe I’m only seeing what I want to see.

I sure know how to pick them, don’t I? 

Los Misterios del Mas Santo Rosario

I prayed the Rosary today, out loud, IN SPANISH.  :D

I hope to make it a habit this summer.  I can work on Spanish AND prayer time…at the same time!  AND I’ll learn all the main prayers in Spanish!  XD  I’m super excited for this.  haha  (I’m a bit ashamed that as a Spanish student, I don’t already know them…but I’m hoping to remedy that)

Ah, Nuestra Senora…she is, truly, the most beautiful. 

Pray for us, O Holy Mother of God, that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.

Ruega por nosotros, Santa Maria de Dios, para que seamos dignos de las promesas de Cristo.